Sensiblyinsane’s Weblog

The first time I heard about this film was when, they announced in news channels that it had won several academy awards. At that point of  time, I did want to see the film,  hardly because it won an academy award, but more because of its peculiar name. But time flew, nothing else really drove me to download the film that very day and watch it. I did a little googling when I became aware that Paa was inspired by the film. But that too didn’t make me want to take the effort to get hold of the film and watch it, until today when a friend told me that it was being played on HBO. I was sick and at home( I still am) so I switched on the TV, the film had taken off, so I missed the initial few scenes. At a point, I can’t remember exactly when, I felt that, since eventually we become aware of the fact that we aren’t going to be around forever, we want some part of us,(if possible the whole of us) to survive and go on living. That I live today is a sign of that,” desire to live” not somebody’s desire to live but independently that, “desire to live”. It’s a realization, I think  it is an enlightenment, therefore I’m finding it hard to express it in words. I think it is life’s desire to exist. Highly philosophical, I know, but that is exactly what I felt. I think it’s amazing. That desire is in my subconscious, I live out of it. And it has been passed into me since life came into being. Deep stuff. And I too wish I survive partly and if possible wholly and forever, and that desire is precisely what is making me write today, or think of having children. Posted after a very long time. I think I’ll post more often now, but you never know.